Re-Live to Move Forward

This was taken on a good mood day a month ago, fresh after a haircut (I know, I’m at the point where I GET to have haircuts now! #BaldToPunk) I have more good days than not-good days, and I’m here to acknowledge those days. Recently, I’ve needed more space. Since last week, I’ve gained more…

PMC Podcast Show Notes

Mitch and I chatted for almost 2 hours on his podcast! Understandably, that’s a LOT to get through listening to.  So here are show notes I’ve done to help. A good practice for my podcast project 🙂 Podcast episode on Pacific Muscle Chats HERE   or links below: (iTunes) https://podcasts.apple.com/zw/podcast/battling-leukaemia-w-emily-tan/id1467731768?i=1000441047297 (Spotify) https://open.spotify.com/episode/4FvjBXgReu8qo7wIoDkGxE?si=IHPlLEsaTG-jP1_hBUlfUg Show notes 2:10   Background. …

Tap Cancer Out – Podcast Episode

When I was invited to go on the podcast channel “Hong Kong Confidential” to share my story, I had no idea I’d go that in-depth with how I lost my virginity and had an abortion at 15 years old. The host of the podcast Jules Hannaford, also the author of “Fool Me Twice “, held space…

Cancer and Relationships

Relationships. As much as I share on social media, I hardly share anything about this topic online.  Reasons not too morphed over the years.  Now, no longer.  It is with a deep understanding of differences amidst the same desired fundamentals and the value of learning through conversations. So, in the interest of full disclosure about…

I’m Alive Post-Transplant

I know it’s been a while since I’ve updated. Truth is, this round of intensive chemotherapy plus stem cell transplant hit me a lot harder than I thought it would.  I mean, there were days where I could barely open my eyes and utter a word.  I was hardly processing any of my own thoughts,…

Stem Cell Transplant – Em’s Hospital Stay Diary

Day -13 As in 13 days until the day of my stem cell transplant/bone marrow transplant (STC/BMT) for Acute Myeloid Leukaemia. Admission, prep, deposit. Prior to being admitted today, I had a scare that I wouldn’t be able to pay the 500,000 HKD deposit for this transplant.  Once again, the people around me pulled through…

My Biggest Fight of 2018

A bone marrow transplant is finally happening. This transplant chemo is the hardest ’bout yet and while the journey to recovering from a BMT looks long, challenging and financially stressful from another year of no work, it does come with the hope that my chances of surviving Acute Myeloid Leukaemia are boosted.  I’m quite stoked…

“What Can The Rest of Us Do?”

  A continuation of the last video on why is it not easy matching bone marrow like blood type. LEARN.   SHARE.   DISCUSS. ——- Now, what does deadlifting have to do with cancer? Well, what do people running marathons, white collar boxing and growing moustaches have to do with cancer? Same intention, different movement. (and we’re…

Asian Identity Got Real

A Chinese born in Malaysia. A Malaysian. An American influenced Malaysian Chinese.  A Malaysian Chinese previously married to a Caucasian American and a Caucasian British/English/United Kingdomners/whatever is the correct term for such a confusing national identity thus me perceived as white-washed or having a “racial type”.  Note, I wasn’t married to both of them at…

Does Being Young Mean Cancer Won’t Get You

“You’re young! You’ll be fine” Dude, I FEEL fine.  I FEEL strong. Leukaemia?   But I could parrot that all day and I still can’t stop the thoughts of “what the fuck if…” I’m left with 2 choices: drown in those thoughts… OR channel that shit and do something useful.  Hence the videos and incessant…

My Summer Room of 2018

This Summer, I’ve checked in several times for a room with a view of Lamma Island. Upon the last hospital discharge, here’s a little on how I get on with Geoff Bland at Joint Dynamics for the REBUILD & RESTORE journey (Chronic Disease Management).   Some of the shots filmed by Adam Tan.   SO…