A Diagnosis-sary at 2 Years

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4/4/2018… the date I was diagnosed with blood cancer. 

If you know the Chinese superstition about the number 4, it pretty much means “die die” to the sum of 8.

Today marks 2 years since my life went into its own kinda lockdown.  Social distancing, cleaning everything, mask wearing.. what most are practicing today during this pandemic… has been the new norm for cancer patients like myself.  We ain’t as bothered about isolation, staying home, not being able to do what we normally do NOW… because we’ve had quite a bit of practice.

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A Day in Life with Emily Tan by Pacific Place Hong Kong

Don’t get me wrong, I’m aware that I may come off as being insensitive to those who haven’t experienced anything life threatening before, having a low threshold for stress management.  I just wanna tell you to hang in there. It’s something I tell myself all the time… but also…

…couldn’t help it #ToughLove #RealTalk

We’re gonna be a lil different coming out of the crisis peak, and it’s gonna be all about how you heal, how you recover, how you adapt to your new norm… because trust me, this will affect you one way or another. Here’s a good piece of reading about shifting your mental state to accept your new norm from this pandemic.

But seriously, hang in there.

Tough times don’t last, tough people do. 

I can’t wait to meet the new you coming out of this. 

For a cancer diagnosis-sary, instead of posting a photo of my “cancer look”, (yeah, some folks think I’m outta the woods when I’m far from it, just because I’m no longer bald), Imma post this video of me living in the moment.  Despite anger & hurt being in a household throughout this quarantine where I’m not wanted, I choose to channel that energy to my ratchet self. 

Yup, I take myself reeeaaal seriously


Choreography by @thealiyajanell I learnt off her tutorial on @fullouttv . That QUEEN has been a FORCE for me.

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I've been told that I'm tiny but tough, so I must have gotten SOME things right. On the inside, I feel like a mushy marshmellow who's a hopeless romantic and find corny cute. Writing "About Me" sections had evolved in the past x years of online profiles, currently, it sits at me still hungry for enlightening experiences and insightful traveling, particularly with human connections. My story at full length on the "About" page :) Thank you for poking around!

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